Shameful confession: I'm not very good at prayer. I know that it's impossible to be bad at prayer, but I stand by my statement. Too often I do the thing where I tell someone I'm going to pray for them, or I simply think to myself "wow, they could really use some remembering in my prayers," and then I don't follow through. More often, I fall asleep praying or I get distracted and my mind wanders and 40 minutes later I remember "oh crap I was praying, wasn't I.." I get so upset with myself because I really love praying. I just can't make my mind focus..

SO. To remedy this problem, I have been keeping a prayer journal. People that need help, things I struggle with, joys and thanks--prayer stuff. I figured that physically writing out my prayer would at least get me into the habit of keeping my mind all there in prayer. What I didn't realize is how overwhelmingly cool this experiment would be. I find that I have so much more to pray for, and I learn so much more about what is on my heart and how God heals me. And looking back through even the few short weeks I've been doing this--it's pretty awesome to see how prayers are answered and my outlook changes.

Prayer is just so cool. It really blows my mind. It's the one time when you positively turn your entire being over, and who should you turn yourself over to more than to God? I get to have a conversation the God of the entire universe and with the God of me. He doesn't mind that my mind sometimes wanders and that I don't always know what to pray. In my joy he rejoices and in my brokenness he pieces me back together. And always, always he loves me. And wow how I don't deserve that.