another blog inspired by alisa

Today I was told to stop worrying about outcomes, and simply stand for principle. Granted, this was in the context of a politics game, but I think I fail to make that distinction often. I am competitive. I tend to beat that fact into the ground, but it's true. I think that things are pointless if I can't win, and I feel as though I am nothing when I fail. Because truly, why do anything if you know it's a lost cause? Why would you spend so much time and effort, only to see it wasted? That's why I'm competitive. I'm competitive because I want all my work to mean something.

But what about when it doesn't go my way? What about when it can't? Sure, it may drive me crazy, but does that mean I should abandon principle? Does that mean I should forget who I am and what I stand for? The point I saw today was that sometimes it's enough simply to know you tried. I might not see it, but by simply standing firm on my own two feet, I can make a tiny dent. We see things in black and white, but sometimes it's possible to stick our little piece of white into darkness and make people think. Opinion and principle, that's what makes things grey. Standing for something is powerful. It shows guts and strength. Sometimes you can win even when the outcome is opposite of what you hoped. I guess I just rarely see it that way.