I have this nagging sense of uselessness. The overarching question for me as of late has been simply, what's the use? What dent can I possibly make in the universe that would cause the world to be made that little bit better and produce the feeling of fulfillment for which we aim? Because, as far as I can tell, it's kind of a lost cause. Sin has caused our world to be stuck in this bottomless rut--who am I to think I can drag it out from the place its been since...well, a really long time. I don't know I guess. Today I was reminded that we strive for greatness--we strive for better than what we have, because why would we settle for anything less? But tonight I'm just..blech. I'm willing to settle. I think I need more than direction. I need a good strong push.