oop, is that a tear? damn. so close.

I am so sick of thinking! I am so tired of changing my mind every two minutes, and I cannot stand the fact that everything I believe to be true is mostly backward and definitely not as black and white as it seems. I just want to quit thinking. I want to know what is right. I want to know God's will for my life, and I want to go and do it. I'm not that smart. I can't make decisions on my own. I'm no good at change, I'm no good at any of it. I'm little. And I want to be little for a little longer. My brain hurts, my heart's sore, and my stomach feels icky. I just want to not think anymore.