stream of consciousness: random thoughts because i haven't blogged in awhile.

I've now been here in my new home for a month. I mean, I moved my things in (some anyway) one month ago yesterday. And I am 100% positive that I am happier today than I was on October the 6th of this year. So while I may go back and forth on this transferring thing sometimes and different things and ideas make me cringe and make me momentarily sad, this is a good thing. And this will continually get better. God is good. And He so beautifully provides.

Tonight I got to have a chat with an amazing woman about an amazing blessing. Marriage is cool. And it's so much more than the ideas I've always had.

Wow I can't stand living in filth. Holy holy cow. Today may have been my breaking point. All I want for my birthday is cleaning supplies. But even when I clean, it gets back to this awful state in about 3 hours. I can finally identify with my mother in this realm. And I need to figure out how to deal with it or I will eventually explode.

This is a weird thing to vocalize(or really typelize..)...but whatever. Lately I feel worth something. Not that I normally don't. But I am loved. And feeling good about myself is such a blessing.

And not to go back on thing one, but I do really really miss St. Peter. And Mankato.

I need to seek out more opportunity for hugs.

Dino of the Week: Maiasaura

The Maiasaura is a duckbilled dinosaur(hadrosaur) that lived in the Montana-ish area. She had a flat skull and crests above her eyes. Her name is pronounced My-yah-sore-ah, it means "Good Mother Lizard." She was called this because she was the first dino to be found within close proximity of her young and most likely took care of them. (notice, her name ends in an "a" versus an "us" because she is one of the few dinos that has a feminine name!) She was roughly 30 ft and weighed 8,000 lbs. She ate plants and berries (probably about 200lbs a day!) and nested in herds with other Maiasuara(nests were generally only about 7ft apart). She could walk on either two or four legs cause she was pretty talented.

Random fact: The Maiasaura was the first dino in space! In 1985 astronauts took a piece of bone and eggshell on a mission. Cool.

Side note: When I was in 6th grade, my dino project was done on this girl.

What goes up, must come down.

Remember how about three weeks ago I was at the happiest of my happy? Well, I'm not necessarily at the saddest of my sads...but I'm down there. And it's less of a sad than I just so..discouraged. Like exhaustedly so. I know there are so many good things around me and I know that there are good things to come and everything is temporary and all those encouraging things. But, man, I'm scared. And I'm sad. My brain is everywhere and nowhere today. Dawson and Joey would be very welcome friends currently.

Also, I left my Bible at school today cause I figured I wouldn't need it for just one night.....ha.